Zwakala

Yeah people who are in this similar situation know what this is about before even explaining what this is about it already makes sense BIG BONED BUT YOUNG -OLDER MEN.Well as a teenager I’ve encountered alot of discouraging paths that pushed me to become the tortoise that I am.I always had a shell behind me that always helped cover or I should say protect me from getting judged or way out of hand with me being happy with myself and my body. I have a lot of topics lined up and each topic will get its own story so my sister’s please  tune in and let us relate together.

So,at the age of 14 I was already big and looked like a 20 year old women, I’ll say I didn’t enjoy my childhood the way I was supposed to enjoy it.Me looking bigger and older than my peers that also made my crushes to not even recognize me,I mean who wants to date the tallest and biggest girl in class no one right so I was mostly approached by older men,men in their 30s,40s and 50s which was really sad.Now I am 18 years old and guess what I look like a 28 year old I know everyone will agree that the most irritating thing is when people ask your age and you confidently smile and answer ’18’ and everyone is shocked at your age and you start getting comments like,”I thought you are 26″, “I thought you’re some old lady with a kid”, or “you look old though(with a giggle)” well I don’t care since I told you I am 18 then admit that I am 18 and stop lowering my self esteem.
Once in a while I would go out and hang out with my friends at a party of picnic and there would obviously be boys there,all my friends meet new hot guys there and I would be standing alone looking like a nanny that is looking after the girls because no boy that is my age wants to approach me and weird thing is that I wear trendy clothes which is obvious that I am still a teen but NO probably everyone thinks I’m just an old lady who’s after trends and doesn’t want to grow up.SUCKS.well only if we had tags on our foreheads that had our age life would be easier.And honestly 50% of my belief is that I don’t blame older men for approaching us because all they see is a women who is also their size and my other 50% believes that these older men do notice that we are young and they just want to take advantage of us,I mean dress code says everything,I can’t be wearing a nice trendy dress with Airforce’s and be 39 years old.without judging anyone but some of us just give up on everything and go for older men because boys that our age won’t even look at us ,you are very WRONG! baby girl there is someone out there who’s meant for you don’t rush into a relationship with an older  men because no one likes you,that man has been through a lot and who knows what kind of illnesses he holds,he is just trying to rob you your childhood.So be still and don’t make decisions because of bad circumstances,love and believe in yourself and the universe will do the rest.

Remember stay blessed and safe but most importantly ZWAKALA let’s address what ever you want to be addressed.Peace